Funny thing happened on the way to prep for return to Richmond Va…
I’m ALREADY Home
I didnt want to leave Richmond but Celestial Spirit wanted me too.
They knew i wouldnt heal there. That i would have EVENTUALLY allowed Sidewinder BACK INTO MY AURA. I never professed to have the wisdom of the ages.
I had to get gone and my penance to pay for my trouble was to foster my furry child. I wanted to blame him solely but we were both duplicitous in our unions destruction. Angel i miss you but Mommy had to learn how to love and care for Just Her.
AFTER A LIFETIME OF CARING FOR OTHERS…
Spirits did send a sign an implication and a SoulFriend in the guise of an Acquaintence who became my Season of Joy.
SO THIS IS WHAT THE TRUTH FEELS LIKE…
Somewhere around the end of 15 I noticed I was breathing better, easier and seeing clearer. Memories not only faded but became spotty less important. My agenda My job and My downtime boast a welcome and familiar Triad.
DO NOT APPROACH AND DO NOT ENTER
A Recluse by Choice…
Ok I told myself Im strong enough to return to my 2nd Home. Its familiar its comfortable I can be alone there I can be Accompanied there if I want to be.
My SoulFriend albeit BUSY is nearby. That might be fun…but would it still be me? Angel has a new home do i just replace her? And must i answer the door and allow myself to be bitten from the side AGAIN under the guise of friendship?
Each day that approached closer to moving insomnia set in, appetite waned, as did indecision and fear. My idyllic existence was about to be encroached upon. MY SOLITIDE HAD BECOME MY PEACE. MY SILENCE HAD BECOME MY REFUGE AND MY DISAPPEARING ACT HAD BECOME MY HOME.
I shut the circus down…